i feel imotional

i hurt my neck
really badly
i was showering
rinsing shampoo out of my hair
then all the sudden i couldn't move
so for two days all i ate was pain killers and muscle relaxers
and now i think i took too many because i'm having crazy stomach pains that make me think i have given myself an ulcer or something

my mommy is proud of me
i'm finally going to get crazy person help
i go to an info session this friday
then for 2 wednesdays there's a prerequisite relaxation group
then 8 sessions of the crazy person group therapy
they assured me i wouldn't have to be standing up and saying "hi my name is" kind of stuff
how fucking ironic is it that i'm attending a thing for anxiety that is causing me anxiety because i'm going to be surrounded with the one thing that causes me such huge anxiety
that made tons of sense

do i be super original for halloween and just wear devil horns and drag queen makeup or do i throw a trench coat, hat and fake moustache on and be a cross-dressing Sherlock?


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