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i have gone nowhere and done nothing with my life
i am behind on everything
everything
i'm a disappointment to my whole family
i'm also pretty sure they all hate me right now
i pissed them all off in a span of like, a week
i don't care
their heads are so far up their asses i can't care
i just want to fucking sleep
maybe be 12 years old again too
i painted a triptych and i actually like it
might even put it up my room
that i haven't been sleeping in
i had really bad nostalgia-deja vu for two days and it made me crazy miserable
so i drank and took ativan hoping i'd stop feeling for maybe 10 minutes or even better go to sleep
no instead i stayed up till 6am cleaning and being frantic about nothing
i know i said i'd stop being a fatty but today i don't care
i'm going to go eat a blueberry bagel and cream cheese
tootles


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