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I have a Red Bull and I don't know how or why.
Perhaps I willed it to be there.
that happens sometimes
Mind over matter.

my house is the Arctic.
A/C is working.
Common decency is not.

uncommon,
rather.


Scent fascinates me. The power of it. A reminder of a smell you knew from years ago can take you right back to a moment. The moment you experienced it. How it can follow you. You think its stalking you. It really is everywhere, in everything else you smell. Most powerful one for me. Coconut. A certain coconut lip gloss I wore for what was only a year but seems like a century. The days I fucked David. Seeing that man from my past I didn't know a mere day before his death. The other men I hardly knew. In my life at one point. Gone. The hotel room. Running up and down the stairs unable to stop. Through the halls. All I could do to keep myself out that damn bathtub. To keep it all at bay. The gift shop key chain I still have attached to my keys. Waking up in the middle of the night in that strange bed to sit in that strange shower to go back to bed and cry over a strange cause. Still have the lip gloss. One whiff and its all right there before my eyes. Come.


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