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I have a Red Bull and I don't know how or why.
Perhaps I willed it to be there.
that happens sometimes
Mind over matter.

my house is the Arctic.
A/C is working.
Common decency is not.

uncommon,
rather.


Scent fascinates me. The power of it. A reminder of a smell you knew from years ago can take you right back to a moment. The moment you experienced it. How it can follow you. You think its stalking you. It really is everywhere, in everything else you smell. Most powerful one for me. Coconut. A certain coconut lip gloss I wore for what was only a year but seems like a century. The days I fucked David. Seeing that man from my past I didn't know a mere day before his death. The other men I hardly knew. In my life at one point. Gone. The hotel room. Running up and down the stairs unable to stop. Through the halls. All I could do to keep myself out that damn bathtub. To keep it all at bay. The gift shop key chain I still have attached to my keys. Waking up in the middle of the night in that strange bed to sit in that strange shower to go back to bed and cry over a strange cause. Still have the lip gloss. One whiff and its all right there before my eyes. Come.


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notes

We're trying something new today.
Sorry, I don't know why.



if illusions are magic delusions must be sorcery



entice:
dull

seduce:
dull

charm:
dull

inveigle:
dull



Conjuration
I can't dream

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hai interweb wurld! i didnt sleep in 2day bummer. its so nice n kool outside only 20 insted of stoopid 30 that means not hott n da house. i jus gave da dogs treats n now they hovering round me cuz they think they deserve another silly poochies im so hungry i wonder when loris gon call i wish that lady wuld jus give me a time n day cuz i hate waitin round wundring wen she gonna call itz lame-O! i had a hard time gettin ta sleep last nite even tho i took 3 emtec and 4 regular tylenol i also watchd indiana jones raiders of the lost ark it wuz more decent then the last crusade im gonna go eat now my tummy is going RAWR